Signs that Mika Chiong is in love: she keeps staring at that person’s name and number on her cell phone; she then starts writing a novella based on her current situation; she doesn’t mind whether or not he’s British (haha!), all that matters is he is who he is! And worst, she starts rhyming.
“Not Necessarily Love”
by Mika Chiong
I never thought I’d meet a guy like you,
Someone so friendly and hated by few.
In fact, rephrase that;
You’re not hated ’cause you’re nearly perfect,
And your presence makes other people elated!
I’ve always liked you, like most girls do;
But it’s highly unlikely that I’ll ever be your boo.
Oh yes, we’re friends, if you can even consider that;
Things just get complicated when I start to get sad.
Sad in the sense that here I go again;
I don’t think I can survive another case of unrequited love.
I once fell in love, and all I felt was pain;
This has to stop for it’s starting to make me laugh!
My thoughts are kind of hazy but
When I think of the words “I love you,”
I start to act like crazy!
How can I be sure that I already “love” you,
When I haven’t even heard you say that “four-letter” word
Even to a few?
On the other hand, this ain’t just a crush;
And before I fall hard and feel like
Some sort of trash,
I want to say thanks for making me feel
This kind of “love” rush.
All this time I just
Needed a little inspiration;
Not necessarily love, but enough to
Make me write this whole presentation!
This is bad. Really, really bad. Not to mention, downright PATHETIC. Yes, I’m calling myself pathetic. Just this once. But I’m pathetic, nonetheless.
Now you know I really got it bad! Hahaha!
So when exactly did I realize that my “love” for him was finally being preceded by the preposition “in”? That moment I saw THAT picture.
More importantly, to whom am I “in love” with? Asa kayo! Syempre hindi ko sasabihin noh! FOR NOW.
And last question, why am I blogging about it? Well, it’s like what I said before. Sometimes, I just can’t keep my thoughts to myself. And blogging serves as my outlet when that happens. It makes me more connected to and reflect more on my feelings, you know? So here I am.
Here I am attempting to feel more connected to and reflect more on “the love” I’m feeling right now. And there’s no better way to do that than talk about it.
But you know, I once talked about love. Not that I’m an expert on it, but I did talk about it. Once.
So what exactly did I say? Well, I said that love indeed comes from all sorts of things and from different people from all walks of life. It may be love in the form of friendship which is a feeling that puts me on high, and it can also be love for family which in my opinion, is one of the greatest gifts God ever trusted upon me. Speaking of God, there’s also a form of love which I dedicate solely to Him. If you love Him, then there’s no need to further explain. You should already know how it feels because I know I DO. And last, but definitely not the least, is love in the form of a relationship with the opposite sex (or the same sex for others). For me, this is the most complicated form of L-O-V-E.
Don’t get me wrong, that’s just my opinion. Why complicated? Because if it’s love NOT returned, it’s like a venom ready to kill you slowly. You may not feel the hurt from time to time but when it reaches your heart at some point, you’ll be dead right then and there! There was a time when I felt like giving up already. ”Was” being the operative word. What I did was to just try to look on the bright side. If I fight the venom, then I’ll still be able to live my life and start a new one. That’s when the other forms of love enter. They’re like the anti-venom for all of my miseries. If one didn’t work out the way I hoped it would, all I have to do is tilt my head back on the other side.
It’s also like playing tennis. It’s either you hit the ball with a forehand or a backhand, either way, if your ball’s OUT, at least you know you have both of your hands to do it all over again and score a point. But then again, for tennis players, LOVE MEANS NOTHING (at least during a rally). I researched the term and I found out that it was derived from the French word l’oeuf, the egg, symbolizing nothing.
Then it made me wonder… is love really nothing if it goes only one-way? I once said it’s not. It’s not nothing! As Andy Roddick put it after losing a match to Roger Federer, “It was frustrating, it was miserable, it sucked. But besides that, it was fine.” And just like how my previous unrequited love felt, yeah it sucked, but in the end, it was all worth the pain!
Now, the question is: is the current one still worth the pain? I’d like to think so. Besides, aren’t there sayings that say (how redundant) “no pain, no gain” and “all’s fair in love and war”? Ha! Now it’s really confirmed that I got it “worse” since I’m already quoting random shizz. Wahahahaha!
Oh well papel. If all else fails, this experience can always make me “stronger.” Why not?
And I’ll always have Snape to take inspiration from! (If you didn’t get what I just said, you obviously didn’t read or watch the last installment of Harry Potter! So READ and WATCH IT!!!)
Ay nako, tama na nga ang rambling.
Sa totoo lang, ito lang naman yun eh. Or in English, it all comes down to this:
“Without the fear of how it might end… I guess I’m ready to love again.”
Tamaaa! Unrequited or not, choosy or easy, I’m ready to love again. So universe, bring it on! Let the love begiiin. Paaak!
With love, love, luuurve,
So One Direction. Ever since I got “infected,” I’ve written two 1D-related posts on this blog (HERE and HERE). If those weren’t enough, I even acquired my very own “fangirl stuff,” which includes 1D‘s debut album, their two official books — One Direction: Forever Young (Our Official X Factor Story) and Dare to Dream: Life as One Direction, their first concert DVD, a baller, a fan magazine, and still counting…
So when Ms. Dyan Zarzuela of Candy magazine asked me if I could share my 1D “fangirl story” with her, of course I didn’t think twice! There’s no better way to proclaim to “the world” my 1D devotion than with the help of the Philippines’ #1 teen magazine, Candy, right???
The feature was short, but definitely sweet. As for the interview itself, I kind of got carried away! Hahaha! But if you get to read it, you’ll definitely UNDERSTAND how and why I got “infected” in the first place! So I decided to share it with yoouuu!
And now I’m warning you… what you’re about to read from hereon was pretty much how I gushed about 1D!
The video that made me become a 1D fan.
I’ve to be honest… my Direction Infection wasn’t a “love at first sight” thing. In fact, I kind of overlooked their “What Makes You Beautiful” music video the first time I saw it on TV. But on MARCH 21, 2012 (yes, it’s pretty recent; and yes, I know the exact date! Haha!), THIS video made me see 1D in a whole different light:
“ONE DIRECTION Teaches You to Speak British!” was THE video that made me a 1D fan!
The top 3 things I love about 1D.
First, they’re BRITISH — which is kind of a giveaway already since I’m a self-proclaimed Anglophile! Heehee.
Second, their STORIES. All One Directioners know that 1D was formed thanks to The X Factor (UK), but when I read their latest book, Dare To Dream: Life As One Direction, it was as if I was able to have a deeper connection with the boys and realized that yes, they, too, were just ordinary humans like most of us who once upon a time had big dreams… and were able to make them come true!
Last but definitely not the least, their MUSIC. Of course! 1D‘s album is actually what I play ALL DAY on my iPod! And I repeat, not just their hit singles, but the ENTIRE ALBUM — no kidding! I love the fact that each song in their album is distinct from one another. For example, “What Makes You Beautiful” sounds very current, typical for a boyband… but when you reach the last track, “Stole My Heart,” I actually get some kind of an 80′s vibe or something! I can’t really explain it… all I know is that 1D‘s music isn’t something people should take for granted or worse, underestimate.
My fave 1D member.
HARR-EH!!! Yes, Harry Styles is my favorite 1D member because I love his (husky) voice, I love his megawatt smile, I love his hair, I love his green eyes, I love that he loves cats, I love his personality (such a self-proclaimed cheeky chappy!), I love his “Isn’t She Lovely” audition on The X Factor, I love the fact that he’s close to his mum, I love that he doesn’t think age matters (hahaha!)
Oh let’s face it, I love EVERYTHING about him!!! ♥
Things that make a real 1D fangirl AND things that a real 1D fangirl would never do.
A real 1D fangirl is someone who…
…knows all 1D‘s songs by heart.
…has a Facebook wall/Twitter feed full of 1D news/stuff!
…gets her hands on every possible 1D merchandise — whether it’s from the U.K., Australia, America, or just any part of the world (guilty as charged! Haha!)
…smiles at the thought of 1D. As simple as that.
…supports not just her favorite member, but ALL the members!
…will name her future sons Harry, Liam, Louis, Niall, and/or Zayn! =))
A real 1D fangirl would never…
…bash/trash-talk any of the boys’ girlfriends/love interests (no matter how much that sucks!) </3
…buy a pirated 1D album/CD/DVD. It’s just plain wrong… not to mention ILLEGAL.
…compare the boys to other artists. Simply put, the boys are unique in their own ways. 1D IS 1D; they’re incomparable. (Spoken like a true One Directioner! Hahaha!)
…outgrow the boyband. 5, 10, or more years from now — even when they’re already classified as a “middle-aged men” band! There’s just NO CURE for this Direction Infection!!!
And actually, I once had a Facebook status talking about my decision to resign from my job:
“I contemplated… and changed my mind. Fight ’til the end! Ika nga, use all possible ‘lifelines!’ You’ll be surprised that even One Direction played a big role in this decision-making… That’s HOW MUCH they’re influencing my life right now! But then again, only a REAL FAN GIRL will understand why.”
Believe it or not. But yes, BELIEVE IT!
My friends actually found it “different” that I decided not to resign from my job because of 1D. Obviously, the boys weren’t the only reason BUT they were one of the major factors.
First is very obvious. How else would I be able to afford 1D fangirl-ing stuff and merchandise if I didn’t earn my own money? At my age, I already pay for my own “wants” and asking money from others isn’t just an option.
Next, they inspire me. To WORK HARD, that is. We think that being a celebrity/superstar is all glitz and glamour. True. But it also takes a lot of hard work. We all witnessed THAT (hard work) during the seventh season of The X Factor (UK). We all STILL see that while the boys are busy traveling the world, satisfying each and every fan… while enduring being away from their families and not having the same kind of privacy when they were still ordinary British boys. Why do they do those? Because that’s how DEDICATED they are. Because that’s how they’re grateful for all the support they received, are receiving, and will receive from their fans!
But going back to my status, I’ve to say that the “fight” is over now. I did use my so-called “lifelines,” but my decision to finally resign eventually became a “need” instead of a “want.” I may be unemployed now, but I’m not rushing anyway. It’s because when I land my next job, I don’t want it to be just another job — I want it to be where I can finally have a “career.” Besides, I already have sufficient time to focus on my graduate studies now. And guess what? I still get to be my fangirl self and get my hands on 1D merchandise — thanks to my ever supportive family members! Harharhar.
Like I said, only a REAL FANGIRL can get me! Enough said.
Ooh, while we’re at it,
why not grab a copy of Candy magazine’s latest issue?
Available wherever magazines are sold for only Php100.
Just last March, the Philippines’ #1 teen magazine — Candy — celebrated its 13th anniversary!
Next, next month, I’ll be celebrating a decade of being a loyal reader. Yes! It was in July 2002 and I was in my sophomore year in high school when I first became a Candy Girl.
And then six years after that, I made my teenage dream come true when I was given the chance to be one of its contributing writers (as well as appear in the magazine itself from time to time!)
It started in the year 2008, I was 18, and I just graduated from college. And even though I decided to have some sort of a “gap year” by focusing on my Master’s Degree and not diving into the corporate world head-on, Candy gave me a sense of self-worth by helping me develop my writing skills, gain a new and once-in-a-lifetime experience, while getting paid all at the same time! So you can say that my “glory days/years” were those when I was still with Candy.
Anyway, even though almost two years have passed since my last article was published, I still continue to be a very loyal Candy Girl. And just today, I finally got my last charm for my Candy bracelet! Hahaha!
Why PERSONALIZED? Simply because during my Council of Cool days, Candy happened to celebrate its 10th anniversary (2009). And that year, they also gave away a free charm bracelet. You can say that for the past three years, I’ve been wearing my own Candy charm bracelet — which included acquiring my own charms, apart from the free ones. And knowing me, each charm has its own meaning. Haha!
The “C” (middle) was the very first charm I had. It represents the Candy logo. And well, it doesn’t hurt that my surname starts with this letter too!
The Mini Cooper with the Union Jack (top left) represents… err… my Anglophilia. It was also my niece’s Christmas gift to me, so that makes it extra special!
The Cross (top right) represents my faith. Roman Catholic all the way, AMEN.
The Heart with the Universal Studios Singapore logo (bottom left) represents my family. I bought it during a family trip to Singapore, and the heart shape just says it all.
The “Keep Calm Candy Girl” (bottom right) represents my two loves: the U.K. (Keep Calm and Carry On, anyone?) and of course, Candy!!!
For those who collected, collect, and will collect the Candy charm bracelet, you may ask what happened to the other bracelet and charms? Well don’t worry! I’ve been keeping them…
…and I’ve been planning to give them to somebody.
(I still just don’t know WHO! HA HA HA)
So TEN YEARS, huh? Well, I can truly say that it was the sweetest decade of my life! It just amazes me to think how one simple form of media can affect not just my life, but the lives of many Filipino teenagers! And I know that some of you may say that I’m already too old for THIS… you’re right. After all, Candy‘s main market is girls aged 13-21. But for someone like me who actually grew up with the magazine, it’s a whole different story.
Yes, I’m 22. And yes, I’m still very much proud of being a loyal Candy Girl. In fact, I think that if there’s one thing Candy has taught me, it’s loyalty — loyalty to my family, loyalty to my friends… but most of all, loyalty to myself. And as cliche as it may sound, you can’t deny it: it always pays to be true to who you are. And for that, I’ll forever be grateful. Grateful for Candy for being my best-est friend for the past sweet ten years… and for the many years to come. May you continue to inspire the current and the next generation of Filipino teenagers! More power to you! And of course, Happy 13th Anniversary again!!!
Having said that, know that The Lady was, is, and will forever be a Candy Girl. I, thank you. ♥
I think I’ve already encountered this before, but I have to give credit to Ms. Cara Manglapus (who also happens to be my featured traveler for the month of April) for reminding me of The Holstee Manifesto when I visited her blog and stumbled upon one of her entries.
As some of my friends (and colleagues) know, may pinagdadaanan ako ngayon… and reading THIS really helped me a lot. (Especially the fourth line! AHEM!)
So for those of you who’ll read The Holstee Manifesto for the first time, I assure you that you’ll get a thing or two (or more) about living your life; as for those who already know this, then be inspired all over again!
This is your life.
Do what you love, and do it often.
If you don’t like something, change it.
If you don’t like your job, quit.
If you don’t have enough time, stop watching TV.
If you’re looking for the love of your life, stop; they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love.
Stop over analyzing, life is simple.
All emotions are beautiful.
When you eat, appreciate every last bite.
Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences.
Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them.
Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself.
Some opportunities only come once, seize them.
Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating.
Life is short.
Live your dream and share your passion.
Very well said, don’t you think?
The WHAT’s have already been stated…
Now the question is WHEN???
Good luck to us all!!!
Keep calm and live your life the way you want it to be ♥
WEDDINGS. They’re expensive, stressful, time-consuming…
…but most importantly, they bring TWO PEOPLE together — two people who are so full of LOVE they actually give Romeo and Juliet a run for their money… two people who are selfless enough to spend and share their lives with one another for as long as they live.
As Alice Cullen put it, “Weddings, they bring everyone together!”
But even before we get to the “formal” I DOs, one I DO must be uttered first — which brings us to THE PROPOSAL!
And as wrong timing as this post may seem (since it’s DECEMBER, not JUNE!), I’d like to share with you the video that started this whole “wedding” idea:
Aahhh, FLASH MOBS. From the moment I’ve seen them in Friends with Benefits, I instantly fell in love with the entire concept! And yes, hopeless romantic guys sure thought well for using a flash mob to execute one of the most nerve-wracking questions they’ll ever ask in their life:
“Wilt thou wed me?”
or if you prefer the modern translation,
“WILL YOU MARRY ME?”
Although it’s been said many times, many ways (oha! I can still make this post sound Christmas-y! Hahaha!), one thing remains: that when THAT one question is properly answered, it opens a whole new world to the people involved! It’s not just the kilig factor anymore… It’s more of the fact that two people will finally turn a new chapter in their lives, and embark on a journey… a journey which most likely leads to HAPPILY EVER AFTER! Enough. said.
Just so you know, I recently got married, too…
…IN MY DREAMS, that is!
Oh well. Always a bridesmaid, but not really looking forward to being the bride (at least NOT YET!),
Mikhaela Georgette Chiong-Jobs =))
P.S: I’d like to share with you another video here. Wala lang. If you watch it, you’ll notice the location. Sabi na dapat tumira na’ko sa CALIFORNIA eh — lalo na sa Palo Alto!!! Heehee.
As mentioned in my previous post, here it is! My own separate blog entry about Hottie from A Faraway Land #4 AND the “Apple” of my eye these days: Reed Paul Smith Powell Jobs or simply Reed.
Oh I don’t know! I don’t really have a particular “goal” with this post… What I DO know is I just want to GUSH about Reed! After all, this is my personal blog = my personal space to write anything and everything I want — including my crazy antics and lovelorn moments! Chos! Hahaha!
Forgive me if this seems like a “crazy” post. Heehee. Honestly, I’m not EXACTLY sure when and why my “interest” in the “Prince of APPLE” has started, but thanks to my
stalking ”research” skills, here are some fun facts about him:
He’s the only son of the late Steve Jobs (Reed has one older half-sister and two younger sisters).
He attended Crystal Springs Uplands School. Check out this video.
He currently attends Stanford University. AND he’s part of the Fencing Team! Astig!!!
He wants to be an Oncologist — and find a cure for the disease that took his father’s life.
He was born in September 1991. Therefore, he’s TWO YEARS younger than me. Kaloka lang!
He lives in Palo Alto, California…
…and I live in Manila, Philippines!
Haaay. So much for dreaming!!!
Lastly, mahirap maghanap ng “information” tungkol sa kanya… lalo na pictures — at halos lahat ng available, nagamit ko na yata dito sa blog ko! Haha! Kaya peeps, that’s all for now!
Hay naku. Basta ipagdasal niyo nalang na magkatuluyan kami kasi ‘pag nagkataon, baka isa kayo sa mga kaibigan kong bibigyan namin ni Reed ng libreng Apple products! I’ll call it THE APPLE BUNDLE, which includes an iPod Touch tenth generation, an iPad 10, an iPhone 10S, and a Macbook Sky! — ano daw? MacBook Sky?! Ampf! Wala na yatang mas co-corny pa sa’kin! Desperate times call for desperate CORNY measures, you know?! Baliw-baliwan lang! Wahahahaha!
Oh well papel. Too bad for me, he doesn’t even know I exist. :’(
As Marie Digby put it, “it’s in the stars that girls like ME and boys like HIM were never meant to be.”
Awww! Heartbreak, much? </3
If you still haven’t gotten a copy of THIS, then I suggest you grab one NOW!
(Or at least RESERVE a copy because the last time I checked, it’s already SOLD-OUT!)
”I’m going to be in meetings 24/7 for probably two days and I want you to be in every single one because you’ll learn more in those two days than you would in two years at business school,” he told him. ”You’re going to be in the room with the best people in the world making really tough decisions and get to see how the sausage is made.” -Steve Jobs to his son Reed ♥
Steve Jobs by Walter Isaacson
Book review COMING SOON!