Last week, I got into a fight. So let’s skip the “love” part first. Haha!
It wasn’t really a physical fight, more like a “war of the words” with a person who has no purpose in life whatsoever. Excuse the negative comment at this point because he didn’t have the right to insult me. Yes, it’s a “he.” An old male person who has totally lost my respect and who I decided to completely write off of my life forever. I’ll call him D.O.M. — stands for Deranged Old Man! Period.
What happened? In the first place, we’re not close. At all. I don’t give a damn about him and his life and I don’t talk to him — so you can say that he has no right to comment about me and lecture me about what I should do with my life. He’s not my parent, he didn’t raise me, heck like I said, I avoid having conversations with him because doing so would just be a complete waste of my time. Besides, at his age, the life he’s living isn’t really something worth emulating so maybe he should comment about his own life first and the way he should live it. So when he called me something offensive behind my back (at least he thought I didn’t hear him), he totally crossed the line. All those years of trying to ignore him all boiled down into one bloody exchange of words. Swearwords included. Damn. Call me someone who stooped down to “his” level, but whatever. Minsan, nangyayari talaga yun sa buhay. #GalitNaGalitLang talaga ang naging peg ko.
Who he is and what he said that ticked me off, I will not disclose to you anymore. What I’m willing to tell you is what he commented on: my unemployment once again.
Yes, I’m unemployed once again. But before you judge me (like what D.O.M. did!), at least know the story first.
D.O.M. thought that I’m not good enough, that I couldn’t keep a job because of lack of skills or whatnot, and that I’m not destined for any greatness in this life — WITHOUT knowing anything about what really happened. All he knew was that I was at home that day. All he was, is, and will forever be = one judgmental person.
Well EXCUSE ME, I know what I’m capable of and I know how to make the most out of my skills — I’m just unlucky these days career-wise, that’s all.
The truth: our team got laid off. Hence my career-hunt AGAIN for the past few days. Wish me luck!
You see, we can’t really get EVERYTHING we want. I want a writing job (bonus if it pays well!), along Ayala Avenue, with normal office hours AND a team composed of great people.
Guess what? I got all that and more in my latest job. For the first time, I even found myself calling it a long-term “career” and not just another day job because I loved everything about it so much, I already saw myself working there for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, God has other plans for me and my teammates. So after working there for years and months (them); 17 days (me), we all had to say goodbye to our beloved company and to each other. #LongStoryMadeShort #StillCoping :’(
So yeah. Right now, I’m JOBLESS, I’m MONEYLESS, but I can still feel luuurve all around me. (And it’s not just because Valentine’s Day is around the corner! Hahaha!)
Love for writing
About six months ago, I was writing a draft post entitled, “The Question I Still Haven’t Found The Answer To.” At that time, I think I was referring to what I really wanted to do for the rest of my life.
I kind of wrote that there will come a point in your life when money won’t be a major factor anymore. There will come a point in your life when PURPOSE will be what you’ll finally seek for. I’m not saying that I don’t need money because I do. I really do. Heck, who doesn’t? I don’t think even Bill Gates will ever say that he doesn’t need it. Because he will, maybe for his business and not his personal life, but he needs and will always need money.
The point is, I’m just more drawn to another thing these days: PURPOSE. The kind I’d be willing to be paid less than expected because I know that I’m doing something worthwhile. I found that purpose in WRITING.
I admit, I may not be the best writer in the world, but I know that it’s something I believe I’m good at and enjoy doing both at the same time!
So I can say that I’ve Already Found The Answer to The Question. I now know that I want to write, write, write, for the rest of my life. The only follow-up question is WHERE???
Now, that, I still haven’t found the answer to yet again. So help me God! Wahahahaha!
Love from my family
I’ve already said once, twice, for the nth time that my sisters are truly my biggest IDOLS and INSPIRATIONS. And that when all else fails (i.e. experience retrenchment), I’ll ALWAYS have THEM! And that — THAT is something no one, as in NO ONE, can ever take away from me! True THEN; true NOW. Click HERE and HERE. Haha!
Love FOR and FROM Paul
Just because I’m experiencing bliss in my love life, my work life should suffer? Ganun-ganun nalang, Universe?! Well, I refuse to give in to that whole you-can’t-always-get-what-you-want thing in this department. I want HAPPINESS in both my love life and my work life!
And so far, everything’s getting better and better everyday just because Paul‘s always there by my side. So thanks, hon! I love you!!! :*
Aahhh. Blogging truly is still “therapy” to me. Imagine, I’ve been trying to control all my emotions this past week and writing has been my answer. It truly never fails me.
When I decided to create this post, I didn’t really have a main point (so I apologize for the ramblings!). All I wanted to achieve was feel a little better and unload myself of this “excess baggage” I’ve been carrying lately. I say, mission accomplished! Thank God for WordPress!
But most of all, thank God for LOVE. ♥
“Call Me Maybe”
by Carly Rae Jepsen
by Maroon 5 featuring Wiz Khalifa
And for some reason, they both have something to do with A PHONE. Hahaha!
On a serious note, it got me thinking why these songs are hits… And I guess just like every song, it’s because people can relate to their lyrics. Not to mention, groove to their melodies!
But let’s start with “Payphone.“ How exactly can people relate to it? Okay, the music video’s out of the question. The whole concept of it and its relation to the song are still a mystery to me! This version is actually better, in my opinion:
But anyway, if you’re going to ask me, the part that really got my attention was this:
“If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this. And all those fairytales are full of s*it; one more f*cking love song, I’ll be sick… I’m at a payphone.”
And it wasn’t just the “happy ever after” and “fairytales” that made me press the replay button again and again, it’s the way it was written — in second conditional (excuse the grammarzilla in me) and with straight-to-the-point-no-excuses swearwords! It’s as if the writer really tried to express both the LOVE and PAIN he/she felt, feels, and will feel! And for me, he/she succeeded in doing that exactly.
As for “Call Me, Maybe,“ how do people relate to it? Hmm… To make it easier, let’s make the question how do I relate to it? Hahaha!
Well, I’ll let you in on a secret: Ms. Jepsen‘s hit song is actually one of my fantasies when I travel! You know, go to a foreign place, spot that kind of guy, approach him, give him my number even though we both know it’s craaazy, but then what’s done’s done, so the ball’s already in his court and it’s up to him whether or not he’ll do the next move. Call me. But maybe. Tapos ang kanta!
That. And well, the song’s truly catchy! Even YOU can’t deny that! Mwahahahahaha!
And there goes another rambling from yours truly. =)) To end this, I just want to say that I also found myself WATCHING these. Enjoy!!!
my fellow Lasallians‘ take on “Call Me, Maybe”
Alex G‘s sweet rendition of “Payphone”
I wish she stuck with the original swearwords, though.
Instead of changing them to “it” and “stupid” respectively… If you know what I mean!
If you’re a fellow lady and you’ve watched the movie Letters to Juliet, then you’ll understand why that’s my favorite movie (even Titanic takes only second place!). I also bought and read (of course!) the non-fiction book it’s based on:
“Letters to Juliet: Celebrating Shakespeare’s Greatest Heroine,
the Magical City of Verona, and the Power of Love”
by Lise and Ceil Friedman
Anyway, I swear that it’s ALWAYS my go-to movie whenever I want to feel “in love” at any given time (mostly during weekends), and it doesn’t hurt that it’s set in Italy and stars an Australian actor with a British accent! HA HA HA
The movie was released in 2010… so you can say that for the past two years, THIS memorable line has never failed to put a smile on my face and a frown in my heart both at the same time:
“…’What’ and ‘if’ are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if?? WHAT IF??? I don’t know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it’s never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn’t it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don’t know what a love like Juliet‘s feels like: love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for, but I’d like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I’d have the courage to seize it. And Claire, if you didn’t, I hope one day that you will…”
Beautiful words, aren’t they? Well lately, the words “what” and “if” have been occupying my mind too. And today, it truly hit me when I saw these words in the book I’m currently reading (how timely!):
“…I realized the Fates really were cruel… For the rest of my life I would be thinking about her. She would always be my biggest what if.”
Except that when it comes to my own story, replace “her” and “she” with “him” and “he.”
But the thing with “what” and “if” is they don’t only apply to love. They are present in most aspects of our lives. Or in my life.
What if I said “yes” to that guy from my high school? What if I realized earlier my love for writing and took up journalism instead? What if I applied to Ateneo, too? What if I didn’t become friends with him? What if I acted differently toward him? What if I chose the other company instead of my now-former company? What if I answered this and that during my interview? What if I didn’t do this? What if I didn’t say that?
Ugh. Don’t you just hate THAT feeling? Of asking yourself questions that start with “what” and “if”? @_@ According to my friend Mr. Longman, “what-if” is a countable noun that is defined as “something that could happen in the future or could have happened in the past.”
Unfortunately for us, most of our what-ifs are the latter. Am I right? But if not, well I guess it’s up to each one of us to make sure that our what-ifs are ”something that could happen in the future.” Period.
Wala lang. I just hope the next time you have to combine the words WHAT and IF, you can finally think differently. Instead of going crazy, try reminding yourself of WHAT IS or telling yourself of WHAT WILL BE. At the end of the day, believe that everything happens for a reason. And that you, my friend, are the author AND editor of your own life. So gooo, write your own story. If you prefer a love story, why not? Just do it. And just don’t let me write any more words on this post or else our household will run out of cheese! Mwahahahahaha!
Oh well. Luckily, Colbie Caillat was able to sum up my “what if” in the love department with just one song! It’s also a good thing that it’s the theme song of my favorite movie — Letters to Juliet (see introductory paragraph). Anyway, take the time to click “play,” listen to the song, and read its lyrics… and again fellow ladies, you’ll know WHY:
“…In my heart is where you’ll be / I’ll keep waiting till we meet…”
How about you? Care to share your biggest what if in life?
Here’s hoping to turn my what if into what is or what will be,
Mikhaela Georgette ♥♥♥
More than a year ago, I started sending applications to my dream workplace. After sending at least seven resumes for different positions, I finally received a call from them three months ago (February of this year). That, actually, made me surprised because that was a position I applied for just because. So when they asked me to take an exam, I took it. And I passed.
There were about 10 applicants (including me) during that first exam. Three weeks after, they called me again for another exam. This time, we were nine applicants from different batches. I believe we were three from my batch. Anyway, that second exam was quite challenging. I honestly thought I had a 50-50 chance of passing it. I did my best, so I just let God do the rest. Two weeks after, it seemed that God heard my prayer because I was finally invited for the final interview.
Out of the nine applicants, only three of us were invited for the interview. ONLY THREE. And I thought I didn’t even have a chance! Anyway, my last job interview happened more than three years ago that’s why I really tried my best to prepare for this one. Luckily, I have two friends who already work for my dream workplace (lucky them, indeed!), and thanks to their tips, I wasn’t THAT shocked anymore when I finally entered the room.
Entering the interview room felt like being in a reality show wherein you’d be judged. Except with this one, instead of talent, you’d be judged based on your answers. There were four people who interviewed me, two of them were foreigners. AND I was the first one to be interviewed — thanks to my surname NOT! Alphabetical order ba naman! Kulang nalang talaga literal na dumugo ang ilong ko! Add to that the Manila heat!!! =))
Honestly, I thought I did fine. Most of the questions I anticipated were asked, and I was really comfortable during the interview. But I’ve to admit, most of the answers I practiced didn’t get delivered the way I expected them to be. After the interview, I felt “incomplete.” I knew that I could’ve answered BETTER. And today, I found out that my dream workplace didn’t want “better”; they wanted THE BEST.
*all together now* AWWW! ARAY!! OUCH!!!
Of course, from the very beginning, I knew that my dream workplace doesn’t want anyone or anything but THE BEST. Unfortunately for me, my best wasn’t good enough for them. AT LEAST FOR NOW.
That’s right! I wouldn’t call my dream workplace my DREAM workplace if it was any ordinary workplace. I’ve already shown my perseverance by sending seven resumes… why stop NOW? I say, seven resumes… and still counting! And since I’m already unemployed as of today (more on this on another blog entry), I’m kinda officially “broke” from here on. Haha!
But hey! I may be “broke” now, but I’m definitely NOT broken. As long as I have “hope,” I know that finding my “career path” will come sooner or later.
Sure, there will be bumps on the road (which can cause delay), but that’s life as we know it anyway. But what matters most, especially NOW, is for me to just keep going until I finally make my DREAM workplace a REALITY.
Tama naman ako diba? O kaya ayan, smile na ulit diyan!
“No matter how dreams may seem unreachable, dream them anyway. No matter how we’ve been hurt by the people we love, love them anyway. No matter how hard life is, live it anyway. No matter how prayers may seem unanswered, pray them anyway… for GOD WILL MAKE A WAY.”
P.S. When I started this blog, I was working for my now-former company for 4 months. Imagine, THIS post is my 100th post! Who would’ve thought that I would embark on another “unemployed” journey after 2 years, 9 months, 5 days, and 100 blog posts? Hahaha! Anyway, The Lady is now out!
…Iron Man, that is!
That’s right, I’m talking about The Avengers. (Spoiler alert for those who still haven’t watched the movie!)
Anyway, let’s get this done and over with! Even before I watched the movie, I already prepared myself for some major EYE CANDY! Pagsamahin mo ba naman ang dalawang CHRIS — Evans at Hemsworth — sa isang pelikula! Deymn! Wala na yatang mas iinit pa sa napakainit na summer na ‘to!!! @_@
If only the “Avengers” were in a contest, I’d probably award them with these:
Best Biceps: THOR
Oh my guulaaay! Ilang kilong gulay ba ang kinailangang kainin ni Chris Hemsworth para magka-braso ng ganun?! I seriously couldn’t keep my eyes off of his arms whenever he had his close-ups! Yes, Thor‘s biceps > Thor‘s blue eyes and blond hair! Chris H., pa-huuug nga!!!
Best (Upper) Body: CAPTAIN AMERICA
Hay Chris Evans! Oo na, ikaw na! IKAW NA ANG MAS SEXY SA’KIN! Kaasar, much!!! =))
Best Lines: IRON MAN
From being his usual “genius, playboy, billionaire” self, to his anti-kiss statement (more on that later), I think the outcome of the movie did quite very well thanks to Robert Downey, Jr.‘s witty lines! Plus, I think he’s the “best” Avenger (and I’m NOT being biased here! Haha!)
Best Temper: THE HULK
Whaaat? I know that’s sooo obvious… but I just can’t CAN’T include him! Besides, Mark Ruffalo‘s a-okay in his own way (well, just don’t compare him to Evans and Hemsworth and we’re good!) AND I love the color green! ’Nuff said.
Hahaha, okay! For all my men readers, I apologize. The things you just read were meant for my fellow lady readers! (Ain’t that right, girls? I swear, you’ll totally get me once you watch the actual movie!)
Moving on, I have to admit that I ain’t a genuine The Avengers fan. So let’s not get into all those comic book stuff and Comic-Con conventions and whatnot! My knowledge of The Avengers is only limited to its Hollywood version, so to all die-hard followers out there, chillax! This post is purely for fun! Or as they say in showbiz, purely for ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES only!!!
But overall, I can say that the movie was good! Maybe not THAT great (*cough*FIGHT SCENES*cough*), but it’s worth your money nonetheless. I actually plan on watching it again with my girlfriend Val!
Ooh, before I forget, S.H.I.E.L.D’s very own Nick Fury, Hawkeye, and Black Widow weren’t bad at all! So those are more “things” to look forward to!
Now going back to Iron Man‘s anti-kiss statement, THAT scene was actually one of my favorites! Laugh out loud kung laugh out loud talaga!
“Please tell me nobody kissed me!” -Iron Man to Captain America, The Hulk, and Thor (you have to watch the movie to relate! Hahaha!)
Seriously, WHO WOULDN’T WANT TO KISS CAPTAIN AMERICA, THE HULK, AND THOR???
Okay, maybe not The Hulk…
But when we’re only talking about Chris AND Chris, to answer that question… NOT ME!
By all means, please replace “nobody” with “EVERYBODY!” Diba? Wahahahaha!
Lemme know what you think once you watch The Avengers.
The Avengers is now shown in Philippine cinemas.
I’m no expert blogger. You can call me a “hobby blogger” or whatever. But me, I’m simply a “blogger” — no need to precede it with any adjective found in the dictionary. I’m simply just a person who enjoys rambling for I just can’t keep my thoughts to myself.
A blogger. A simple blogger. (And there goes the adjective! Hahaha!)
Anyway, THIS “simple blogger” can seriously say that BLOGGING is for EVERYONE. And since overgeneralization is in vogue nowadays, heavens yes — that includes YOU!
So why? Why should there be more <insert adjective here> bloggers in the cyber world? Well…
…a form of “therapy.” Whether you’re angry, happy, sad, IN LUUURVE, or just plain bored, blogging can help you! Well, at least that’s what it does for me. Expressing your feelings through words is, no doubt, therapeutic. If you’re not convinced, the only way to prove that is to TRY IT. So go ahead, blog away!
…a “time capsule.” Aside from ALWAYS thinking of topics that may interest your readers, why not just document how your day went. It can be as simple as going to a mall and then suddenly bumping into an old friend you haven’t seen in years, or it can be as grand as traveling to Antarctica where no one else has been to except for scientists (oh yes you can!), blog about it.
A picture can PAINT a thousand words. But a blog? Aside from already having pictures, a blog can SHOW exactly your feelings through words. It can show how you felt on that exact same day you went to the mall or traveled to Antarctica. Plus, it’s easier to “go back in time” through your “archives” widget, don’t cha think? Heehee.
Blogging can give you…
…improved (writing) skills. I may not be a big shot in writing, I may not be friends with J.K. Rowling (which sucks ’cause I hear she’s even richer than the Queen!), I may not be a Freshly Pressed blogger here on WordPress (are you hearing this WordPress?! Haha!), but I get to be “published” with just a click of a button!
On top of that, there’s no pressure. I don’t have to worry about what my editor will say or what errors I will commit. I don’t even have to get disappointed when my “marketing strategy” fails for not having enough hits on one blog post. Why? ’Cause I’m ALL that when it comes to my blog. I edit it, I proofread it, and I “market” it (thanks Facebook and Twitter). Most importantly, I “learn” every time my fingers get in touch with my keyboard. Count them together and I already have a total of FOUR SKILLS I was able to improve just by blogging. So if you’re in need of a budding editor/proofreader/marketing assistant/learner, just give me a call, will ya?
And oh! Before I forget, some people have actually been telling me that there’s a big improvement in my writing skills (yay, another improved skill!) compared to the way I wrote in one of my previous blogs — all thanks to the never-ending “lessons” I get, one blog entry at a time.
…followers. In the form of your
stalkers readers, of course. Kidding aside, whether they’re your family, friends, colleagues, or even strangers, be appreciative for being appreciated. After all, they took the time to read what you typed for hours. Bonus is if they LIKE what you typed, too!
So to you my dear readers, A BIG THANK YOU!!!
…self-fulfillment. Aside from being read by others, you should also think of YOURSELF. In the first place, you blogged because of YOU — yourself, and YOU. Your readers, number of likes, comments — those are just icing on the cake. Your actual “cake” should be blogging just the way it is. The way you were able to finally let all those thoughts out. Fulfilling? Most of, if not all the time, YES!
…the meaning of passion. If you don’t call something-you-keep-doing-because-you-enjoy-it-thoroughly-even-though-you-don’t-get-paid-for-it A PASSION, then I don’t know what that is! ’Nuff said.
Through blogging, you can inspire others in your own little way.
I’ve had some people (okay, less than 10 but more than five peeps) tell me that they’ve been inspired to blog because of my blog. THIS blog — this very blog you’re reading right now. (Whew, that’s plenty of “blogs” in one paragraph!) Anywhooo…
For me, that person was Patty Laurel.
Like I’ve mentioned, I’ve been blogging even waaay before I thought of “being a lady,” but I still wasn’t THAT into it. But when I stumbled upon Idol Patty‘s blog, I knew that she was the “push” I needed to go all the way. So thanks, Patty Laurel — thanks for inspiring me to blog!
As for you, yes YOU! As in the one reading this post — I hope you get to be inspired, too.
So why should YOU blog?
Honestly, you’re still the only one who can answer that. I’ve already told you my reasons… and if you don’t see any point in them, well, that’s really not my problem anymore. I say (for the nth time), to each his own.
At least I get to do something I enjoy. Heck, I can even choose any adjective I want to describe my form of blogging. Question is, do you get to do the same thing?
Oh what the heck, you don’t even have to answer that! I say, START BLOGGING NOW!!!
Your resident Lady blogger,
(At the end of the day, I still settled for being called The Lady! KCACO.)
This year, I’ll be turning 3… As in three years in my very first full-time job right after college!
Don’t get me wrong. I “loved” my job… I love the building where I have my job… I love the people I work with in my job… But that’s exactly it. It’s a “job” — it’s NOT a CAREER. Paaak!
I can already feel it… Sooner or later, I have to say hello to “career.” For the past few weeks, my sedentary lifestyle’s been taking a toll on me and my health. Oh no, I don’t blame my job for it. No, not entirely for there are other factors. But a part of it? Yeah. I’ll stop here before I even say something stupid but for now, I’ll be holding on… I’ll be holding on until this so-called quarter-life crisis is over.
But I think the thing that bothers me most is whenever I ask myself the question “What do I want to do with my life?” and then I’ll always end up with nothing to say to myself… *facepalm*
Anyway, I recently posted this as my status on Facebook:
“What do I want to do with my life?! That is the question.
By the time I’m 25, I should have a CAREER already and not just a job. And that’s only 3 years from now… Fuuudge! :|”
CAREER. It’s not just the question, it’s the operative word. So what “career” do I want exactly?
A SHOWBIZ CAREER? Chos!
CAREER-in ang pagiging “future” wife ni Reed? Ay, masyadong ambisyosa! Pero buti alam ko diba?! Harharhar.
Law school, perhaps? But I’ll only be doing it for the sake of having an “Atty.” before my name, so FAIL! It’s. not. my. calling.
A career in WRITING? Hmm… an interesting option but I’m still not so sure. Writing is my hobb-eeyyy… but making it as something I do for a living? PRESSURE!!!
Siiigh. I think part of this “quarter-life crisis” is my older sisters. ’Cause you know, they all have established careers and the pressure is so on — ON ME! But just so you know, it’s not them. It’s ME — again! Si bunso talaga oh! =)) I’ve already accepted the fact that I’m the odd one out among my sisters. It’s a looong story so if you want further explanation, just click here. Hahaha!
Like I said, I’m giving myself THREE MORE YEARS to decide… Wala lang, kasi 25 sounds sooo… sooo… So “employment gods,” hear me! Hear me, please!!!
Hay nakoowww. Honestly, I’d rather be the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge’s ultimate alalay than be where I am NOW. Sino ba naman kasi ang nag-imbento pa ng quarter-life crisis eh! Tsk.
How are you dealing with your very own quarter-life crisis?
Share your thoughts, please!